I am your lady...
Κυριακή 27 Σεπτεμβρίου 2009 by Joanna
"Και αυτός;" της λέω.
"Δεν ξέρω." απαντά και αυτή τη φορά το βλέμμα της κοιτά στο κενό και μου φαίνεται σαν να χλωμιάζει λιγο.
"Ξέρω εγώ."
"Τι ξέρεις δηλαδή;" ρωτάει και με κοιτάει αυτή τη φορά με ύφος απελπισμένο, περιμένοντας να πω κάτι που θα της αλλάξει τη διάθεση, λες και αν δεν το έλεγα ολόκληρος ο κόσμος της θα γκρεμιζόταν!
"Για ένα πράγμα είμαι σίγουρη Άντζελα μου. Αυτός ο άνθρωπος, σε αγαπάει με όλο του το είναι.Περισσότερο και απο όσο φαντάζεσαι.Απλά δεν μπορεί να στο δείξει."
Με κοιτάει σαστισμένη.Τα μάτια της πιο γαλανά απο ποτέ, μοιάζουν έτοιμα να δακρύσουν.
"Γιατί δεν μπορεί; Νιώθω να τρέχω κοντά του, αλλά ποτέ να μην τον φτάνω."
"Δεν θέλει να σε πληγώσει..."
"Ξέρεις πόσες φορές ήθελα να του πω σ'αγαπώ; Κάτι όμως μέσα μου δεν με άφηνε..."
"Μπορεί απλά να φοβάται.Ίσως απλά αυτό που τον κρατάει να είναι το ότι φοβάται μην πληγωθεί και αυτός." της λέω και μου φαίνεται πως ότι και αν πω, τα λόγια μου δεν την παρηγορούν.
"Ξέρεις...εμένα δεν με νοιάζει. Θέλω απλά να νιώσω.Να με αφήσει να τον πλησιάσω.Και ας πληγωθώ!" μου λέει και τώρα μοιάζει να είναι εντελώς σίγουρη.Ξαφνικά το πρόσωπο της πήρε άλλον δυναμισμό.
"Και για εμένα είναι αδιάβατα μονοπάτια αυτά" συνεχίζει." Βιώνω συναισθήματα που δεν είχα ξαναβιώσει τόσο έντονα ποτέ!Αλλά... εμένα δεν με νοιάζει. Τα δίνω όλα. Και αυτό με κάνει να νιώθω τον έρωτα... έστω και μονόπλευρα. Αφού έτσι φεύγει ολό και πιο μακρυά μου..."
Nikideluxe!
Τετάρτη 23 Σεπτεμβρίου 2009 by Joanna

Είχα ξεχάσει να σας πω για τη φίλη μου τη Νίκη!
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Κάτι απο ένα φίλο...!
Παρασκευή 11 Σεπτεμβρίου 2009 by Joanna
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried...
Έβλεπα κάτι προχθές και σε θυμήθηκα έντονα...Όπου και να είσαι καλέ μου...αυτό μπορεί να το δεις...!
Μια γλυκιά καληνύχτα!
